My Honeyah

Dear Honeyah,

Hello!

So today, it is my honeyah's birthday! It may not be an exciting day for them, but it is for me!

Looking back, I can't believe that it's almost been only 4-5 years of us being in a relationship. I don't really know exactly when we became "official" because it sort of just happened? I even tried looking through month's worth of texts to see when it all kinda happened, but that investigation was for nothing lmao. I thought we started roughly around maybe July 2014? But no...it was actually somewhere before that?? There was a time in my life where I used to be envious of other couples knowing exactly what date their relationship became official, but as I aged, it doesn't really matter anymore because we're still together after all this time!

We did have a really rough start and middle to our relationship unfortunately, but right now, we are at a good place. We actually did go through a lot together, and I do love how they're always there for me. I never found anyone that truly understood me until I met my honeyah. I used to be so surprised at how well my honeyah knew when something was off about me (when I don't feel well) even before I realized that I wasn't well lmao. Same can be said for me towards them I guess. I really did evolve into a better person I feel thanks to them. I for sure got more confident, have more self-esteem, and am not much of a pushover like how I was back in the day. I kind of became a more "straight-foward" type of person compared to my past, but not fully. My perception of things were so negative and hopeless in the middle of my highschool years, that it even shocks my present self whenever I did read past journal entries (my self-esteem was so low that I thought I was not deserving of ANYTHING LMAOO). My past self would always think she never deserves anything better, and how everyone is better than her etc etc. BAD MINDSET.

I am really grateful that I did find my honeyah during that period of my life though. We started off as friends, and I perceived them to be more like a family member (sibling), but look at us now lmao. Honestly, I would have never thought back in the day that we'd ever be in a relationship romantically wise. But no, ya girl actually got feels somewhere a year after our friendship started lmaoo. I remember putting in so much effort in my valentine's day card and birthday card Q_Q. They call it, "the clumsy bunny" because the bunny that I spent an hour on to draw (simple sketch that was so difficult for me to draw) looked like a clumsy personality bunny.

Honestly, we fit together like a puzzle, and I am kind of grateful that I don't have to go through that period where I'm desperate for love. I see my friends and peers going through that period, and I really hope they never fall for anyone just because they are lonely. It kind of sucks sometimes how we can go really desperate for companionship (and settle for something not worth it) but I guess that's just how humans are in nature. I used to think I would be ok with not talking to anyone for days on end, but honestly, I kind of am a diarrhea mouth type of person, so I need at least one person in my life that I can talk to. Even better if they actually connect with me. I'm pretty self-conscious in that aspect of me because I want to give the chance for the other person to communicate as well, and not feel like they're overwhelmed because of me Q_Q.

I don't know where this post was going, but I actually spent half a hour on it so far?? Time sure does go fast everytime I make a post.

My point of the post at first was to announce that it was my honeyah's birthday and talk a bit about them.

I do hope that outside of me, they actually celebrate it with their family. I would be sorta sad if my parents and siblings forgot my birthday, or don't even celebrate it with me Q_Q. The one thing I look for is a simple birthday wish, and that would be all that I need honestly. It just gives me the message that they knew it was my birthday, and took out a part of their time to write me/wish me a message. But so far, since the parents seemed to have forgotten it maybe, I shall try my best to make it their best birthday ever!! It's so great how I am home all day tomorrow too! The last thing I want is for them to be sad on their birthday.

I tend to joke around a lot when it comes to their age because our age gap is not that big but not that small either. I'm so happy I ended up with a person that actually loves me and my AWESOME SENSE OF HUMOUR ♥. They're not the type to joke as much, and honestly their jokes suck lmaoooo. But I really do love how they always accept my jokes +o+. I live for that cute smile any day.

Favorite aspect of my honeyah?? Their smile. Because their cheeks pop out more, you see their baby sized teeth. Eyes get smaller. Tone gets more lighter and cuter. >_< Makes my heart go uwu.

I shall include a photo of "us". I'm Berry Bear and Bunnicula represents them.

I love you so muchers honeyah! I am looking forward to more years and possibly decades with you!

Sincerely,

Lyly

Until then!!

Bonus photo of us:

(what a shortie my honeyah is LOLLLLLL...look at my superior height)

P.S. I did notice how I was doing a bad job at staying consistent with my tenses and second person vs third person stuff. This was originally meant for my honeyah, but it seems that I made it more fitting for someone outside of them lol, since I kept referring to my honeyah as "my honeyah" or "they/them". I have always used they/them pronouns whenever I talked about my honeyah online. I do this because of privacy reasons.

#thoughts #greetings