Thoughts and Dreams

Hello! Today I will be talking about thoughts and dreams in general. How your thoughts tend to influence the course of your dreams...even though sometimes the events can be completely random and not correlate.

Lately, I have been suffering from this thing that can be described as the ironic process theory. The theory is known commonly as the "white bear problem" because countless of psychology professors mentioned this throughout my experiences at school. The more you deliberately suppress a thought, the more likely it is to surface. Sounds a bit intuitive right?

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December 9, 2017

Hello. So it seems that I was just publishing my December 9 post, I apparently had a draft from November 3 LOL. Well judging from the date and what I wrote, I can tell exactly what I was going to talk about. In short, I actually solved the problem LOL. I had this person on my mind often during that week because of events, but eventually I wrote down all the words I wanted to say to that person in this word document. Prior to the word document, I was getting upset with myself for having my thoughts revolve constantly around someone that isn't even in my life anymore. Obviously, I attributed it to me missing the person etc, despite it being well over a year since I last spoke to them. Well, turns out, after writing the word document and actually sending it to the person, I felt so much better LOL. I guess that I had a lot of things left unsaid from 2016 that I wanted to say to the person. I did cut them out of my life literally out of nowhere with no word. Obviously I felt bad for doing that because if someone were to do that to me, I would constantly wonder what I did wrong etc.

A part of me did want to rekindle our somewhat friendship but I think it was a relationship that was meant to pass by. We are both very different from each other too, so I didn't think we would even bond well. And obviously, circumstances made our relations be the way it is now. However, if that person ever does need me, I will always give as much support to them as possible. It's easy to get in contact with me anyways.

It was kind of unfortunate to see that the person kind of changed from the last time I spoke to them. Some of their views changed. I mean, a lot can happen in the span of a year. As much as I would prefer for them to reevaluate their life choices, I don't really have the right to dictate their life. I'm not a family member, nor am I their friend anymore. Despite that, I hope that they do well in their future endeavors, and be happy.

A quote that I live by, is "happiness is key".

So I wish you all the best. I hope you do well in school, get the career that you want, find the one just for you, have a happy relationship and family in the future, if that is your goal still (that life isn't for everyone yeah yeah yeah), but I think that is the life that you still aim for. I sometimes feel bad for you because you emit a lonely type of aura, therefore I hope that you find a significant other while in university. THEY SAY THAT UNIVERSITY IS A MARRIAGE MARKET.

+o+ I do have one last thing to say to you though, but I'm not sure if you will ever see this post LOL. If you do, dkm.

I find it lame that you put "single" in your biography lol.

#thoughts