Procrastination

Lately, I have been dealing with a particular problem: procrastination.

As a child growing up, I never really procrastinated (unless it came to laundry + sweeping the house on Saturdays before mom comes home). I lived a life where I'd start and/or complete tasks once given.

I remember I started the habit of procrastinating in my grade 11 years. I remember it quite clearly, since it occurred early in the morning: 6am.

I took this program called "STEPS" at my highschool, where I could obtain a full year credit from University of Toronto (my current university). I entered the class not exactly knowing what the class was going to be about. I never heard of "sociology, psychology or anthropology" in my entire life before. It ended with "-ology" so I figured it was another form of a science like biology. Turns out, only two them of them were kind of science like...sociology wouldn't fall under that field in my opinion.

Well psychology can be viewed as an arts or science, depending on what school you go to. At my school aka University of Toronto, it is only looked upon as a science (you cannot graduate with a Bachelor of Arts in Psychology). I'm not exactly sure of anthropology but I feel that it is an integration of the social sciences, human biology and maybe humanities. It's a pretty interesting course though, for someone like me.

Anyways, the class that was offered as a full year credit was actually for sociology. It was pretty annoying, because I was never a fan of remembering theories and names of these "well known" people who "came up" with these ideas. Each week, there was just one chapter of reading....but OMGGGG was it so boring. I did not enjoy any of the readings. One chapter was roughly about 20-30 pages, but reading those took at LEAST an hour. If you took notes, expect a few hours down the drain. Hated it.

In the beginning, I did my readings slowly before class. Eventually it progressed to me reading it a few days before class. Ultimately, it led to me reading it an hour before I had to leave for school: at 6AM.

Ever since that experience, I was kind of scarred from choosing courses that involved a lot of reading about ideas that seemed intuitive. I basically thought, "why do I have to remember this person just because they APPARENTLY came up with this idea?" I was pretty sure those ideas were thought of before, but no one actually PUT THEIR NAME ONTO THAT IDEA until those people came along. That's my view on sociology anyways.

Zoom to present day, I have to deal with this problem because it creeps up often. It's so easy to fall into the hole of procrastination, but it is so hard to get out of it.

I always try to finish my work on time but bc of my procrastinating, and the fact that uni courses take longer than predicted most of the time, I started to become behind in half of my courses.

I used to be able to focus in a relatively loud environment, as long as no one actually bothers me. For example, back in highschool, during lunchtime, the cafeteria would get really loud, but I was able to zone out the entire room and focus purely on my work. I used to be able to listen to music while doing my work. Nowadays, if I hear one little shuffle movement, I get distracted and start to find other things to do instead of the work at hand. :)

I'm dealing with this, by going to the library more (I focus all the time at school). At home, it's a bit more challenging because the house can get pretty loud and annoying sometimes, and they always zap me out of my focus zone. If I stop doing my work at home, on average, I tend to lose 1-2 hours as a "break". HATE IT.

It's so hard to get rid of this habit...I wish it would go away...I'm probably having to resort to time managing by actually making a time table.

The problem with me is that, I keep thinking that I have all the time in the world, while in reality, time is finite. There's always endless due dates for everything. You finish one thing, take a break? Only a small one though, because you have another due date. >_> Hate it.

Also, isn't it ironic that I am, in a form, procrastinating by writing this post??!

Until then!

This gif relates to me on a whole other level.

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