My Relationship with Math
- Mori Bellorie
- Jul 24, 2017
- 3 min read
Ahh..it's current 6:42AM (july 23), since ya girl has been doing nonstop calculus the whole evening to night.
^^ me and calculus
I didn't notice that time went by so quickly...I actually went to go shower at 5AM. Q_Q Luckily I won't get yelled at that much because I have the excuse of "there's so much school work to do and midterm is coming up in a few days." A true excuse too (BECAUSE LYING IS BAD).
I'm taking a summer course of calculus atm, and it is going so quickly...and there is so much questions assigned per chapter. Once you fall behind in a summer course, it is hard to catch up. Especially in a course like math. I wasn't behind originally, but I think it was just this week where I started becoming one lecture behind (bc of a mix of procrastination and having a difficult time trying to understand the concepts). The layout of the class overall can be weird because the lectures are like 6 chapters ahead of the material covered in the tutorials, and the quiz covers the 3 chapters before that too. o_O It can get confusing, especially since you just learnt a new technique or something and have to revert to the "original base" way. >_> Annoying.
I am SO GLAD I did not take another class because I know for sure I cannot handle it. >_> Probably will avoid as much math classes in the summer as much as possible.
I am so sleepy atm so I will continue this post later. (6:54AM).
So it is current 7:34AM on July 24.
Anyways! I have been struggling with my calculus today...I actually took about 5-6 hours on one section. :) My whole table and floor is full of eraser shavings. My sister actually gave me a new eraser because my old one was almost done (never actually finished an eraser before).
Like I do get the concept. But the thing that made me lose a lot of time (which I regret), is making those computational errors. It sucks too because integration by parts (IBP) sometimes takes a lot of steps...the annoying ones are where you have to IBP multiple times. One question takes more than 50% of my paper. How lovely.
The one thing that hinders me sometimes in calculus is my lack of basic pre calculus stuff. I generally do remember math equations and rules well, but the one thing I always struggled at was with trigonometry, especially when it came to the trig ratios and basic angles stuff. I never got that fundamental down. Each time I memorize the chart, even with constant practice, I'll always forget about it a week later or something. I tried to remember that whole circle, draw triangles and stuff...but it just never works!
So my last resort was to go on youtube. That's right. Ya girl actually went and searched up "how to remember trig important angles". LUCKILY FOR ME, I FOUND THE VIDEO THAT ACTUALLY HELPED ME OUT A LOT. It's a simple "handy" trick. ;D
Here is the link to the video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXGfp9PKdXM
^ Thank you so much to that person because you saved a girl.
Overall, my relationship with math is one hugeee tough one. I barely even entered to the math world, and here I am struggling. Q_Q
I know that in any field, the more education you pursue, the more difficult and abstract the field will become. I clearly was not prepared for that, entering the math program thinking it'll be like highschool math. PFFT. Highschool math was the fundamentals, yes, but it barely grazed the math you see at university of toronto. I do wish that they covered proofs in highschool though...the actual proofs, not those "proofs" in highschool. >_> No wonder I never met any people or hear of lots of people pursuing or graduating in math. I got that question answered for sure (in grade 12, I wondered about why there were so many people going into the sciences, education, etc, but not math).
Throwback to when ya girl truly thought she'll be pursuing pure mathematics (the program made for the high IQ people or people who just want to feel pain...JK).
Due to my capabilities now, I do question if I am able to actually pursue a math major or minor in math. Will I still love math as much as I do now? It gets tiring and is the only courses where I stress more than normal. Is it worth the pain and suffering? What will I be doing after I graduate? Is grad school possible? Is finding a career in that field possible eventually? FULL OF QUESTIONS that just cannot be answered right now...I'll know the answer in the future for sure. :)
I finally found the perfect summary of my relationship with math: love-and-hate. ♥ [7:56AM]
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